Busy Busy Busy

Wow, I can't believe I haven't blogged since April 9th. I have been so busy lately with traveling and working that I haven't stopped to record it.

Here is what I've done over the past two weeks:

• Traveled to Charleston, SC to volunteer for Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover Live show and attend the full day EntreLeadership workshop. Both were fabulous!
• Attended my father in law's funeral at Arlington. It was over the top and a great tribute to his service.
• Worked, worked, worked
  

It's going down

It's time for the tree to come down. It is now a hazard to our house.

The tree cutters are coming at noon today and it will probably take them a few hours to cut and then the boys will be stacking it in the garden away from the house.

Sad day, it was a great tree.

It's here!!!

I just got my book in the mail and will be reading it today!

Stay tuned for my review!

Waiting

I am trying not to be impatient, but this week has been incredibly slow. I could be working on a project, but the client is not ready yet. My fear is that all my work will start coming in at the same time and it will be overwhelming.

Seems like all I do anymore is pray.

In Mourning

John's exit interview today.

Looking for Serenity and Peace

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

I'm weighing in on things I can change and things I cannot change.

What I can control:
My weight.
My outlook on life and family.
My anger at what I cannot control.

What I cannot control:
Whether or not John gets a job this week. Or next. Or next.
My son's lack of focus on his school studies.
The weather.
The agenda of the relatives.
Jacked up prices at Harris Teeter when they have triple coupon specials.
Customers who don't follow deadlines and become unresponsive.
Checks in the mail.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.

Proverbs 3, 5-6

Not sure how to take this...

For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him.

— Philippians 1:29 (NIV)

This is today's verse and I'm not sure how to take it. We have been struggling through the month with uncertainty and doubt. I've been fighting it and it's been a battle. I've had some good days, but mostly bad. Does this mean I'm supposed to be this way? Is this the way God intended me to be? Why would he want our family to suffer? What is his plan?

I am completely helpless in this position. I am working hard and getting more contracts to keep our bank account afloat but it still hurts to put our snowball on hold. I keep seeing the bank balances and wishing I could take a portion of it and completely pay off our last credit card. But, I am worried if I do that, we will regret it and wish we had the money to pay the mortgage sometime down the road if things don't turn around quickly.

Everything was going so great. We were well on the road to debt freedom and building a comfortable emergency fund. It was fun, it was exciting and it made me feel smart with our money. I've never felt that way before.

I pray hard that this detour is short and we can get back on our debt free journey again.